(13) Towards the Year of Faith: Jepoy Meneses

[As we move toward the launch of the Year of Faith, we asked our Young Fulltimers to share their faith journey. Read their stories in their own words]

I have always been afraid of being in front of people.

I remember in my Elementary School days that I got low grades in my Reading Subjects because I could not read a paragraph properly. The fear of standing, more so speaking, in front terrorizes me. My knees buckle, palms sweat and butterflies fill my stomach.

I promised myself that speaking in front would be the last thing I would do in my life.

However, God has other plans. The God who spoke to Pharaoh using the mouthpiece of the hesitant Moses still uses other mouthpieces. The God who turned ordinary fishermen to fishers of men still turns the ordinary to extraordinary. And the God who turned the fear of the apostles in the upper room to courage still sends His Spirit.

The love I felt from God compels me to speak. The love that changed me, took me out of the dark and cleansed me is the same love that every person is longing for. God has called me to speak simply because He made me feel that love.

Now, I still dread going up the stage and holding the mic. But, even if my throat would run dry, my knees buckle and my stomach filled with butterflies, I will not stop to speak. I would continue proclaim His goodness because His perfect love casts out all my fears.