(9) Towards the Year of Faith: Kuh Belarmino

[As we move toward the launch of the Year of Faith, we asked our Young Fulltimers to share their faith journey. Read their stories in their own words]

When I was in College I started seeking for the truth. Who God is? Started questioning my faith and eventually loses my total belief in the Catholic Church and the faith itself. I became agnostic. I don’t believe in any religion at all. I convinced myself that I don’t need the church, the sacraments and the thought that Catholic believers are not good enough and being Catholic doesn’t make sense at all.

I told myself that I don’t need any religion or join any group at all, I partially believe in the existence of God and from then on it’s between me and Him alone. At first I was still praying to God but eventually I started living without Him. I take charge of my life. And because I grew up having a western point of view I don’t really care about my actions and values. The world is not good enough for me. I live in a distorted reality of what life is, I even came to a point where I accepted the facts of new age teachings. But when my Dad died in 2007, everything has changed.

I found myself in the lowest point of my life. I thought that I can take over my life but I realized that I can’t. Again I started to thirst for something heavenly but I don’t have any idea on where I should go. The same year I was invited to attend the SFL Christian Life Seminar I just go there but I don’t expect anything from it. The CLS reintroduce me to the God that I have forgotten and the fact that the same God never stopped loving me even if I turn my back on Him. I started to believe again and it was God’s grace that brought me back towards the Catholic faith.

Since then my life was never been the same again. I work in a multinational company that time when I heard God’s call to become a Missionary, an offer that will lead me to the best kind of life there is. Not even money or any material thing can suffice the joy that I felt when I started living in Christ. To feel God’s immense love in my life and to share Him and that amazing love to other people as well. Right now I have been a Fulltime Pastoral Worker for 3 years already and was now assigned in the CFC SFL Ministry. I believe that God’s message to me remains the same that God wants me to share this part of my life where I was able to meet Him and recognize who He really is, especially to the single men and women all over the world. In all these things, I bring back all the Glory to Him “Thank you Lord!”

My personal conviction is this: “I am a Missionary. I am a worker of God and I will spend my life on proclaiming God’s love, Greatness and testify to the existence of Jesus Christ!” A call, a privilege, an opportunity to Love My God and to Love some More!

1 Comment

  1. “Not
    even money or any material thing can suffice the joy that I felt when I
    started living in Christ. To feel God’s immense love in my life and to
    share Him and that amazing love to
    other people as well. A call, a privilege, an opportunity to Love My
    God and to Love some More!” – Teary eyes & Goosebumps again, te Kuh
    Belarmino…
    Thank you for being an inspiration to all of us.. Amazing God ♥

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